glass god

is it better to waste away your life
hurting yourself and eveyone who cares about you
or is it better to go out in a style
without hurting another soul
any further

in both cases, it hurts, a lot, yes, but!
pain fades over time, becomes a memory
a part of someone's personality
a lesson, in a way
that nothing will ever stay



no! no! NO! this is not something i should think
when i am on a brink
of giving in

think of something else - my pain will pass, too!
i need to live if i want that to happen
i need to live if i want to make use of this lesson
live an experience - that's right!
i won't give up this fight
not this one, no matter now dark it becomes
if needed, i'll imagine a light to guide me through darkness

but i will not bow to some glass god
of words and looks and thoughts of other people
i won't live for them. i will live for myself
and i will not give in to this black hole
that wants to swallow it all
i will go on.