(why can't i) let go

why can't i let go
of the things you said so long ago
why am i still stuck in one place
still on the chase
after you
(even though i was the first one to let go)

too many, too much

it's okay

what else can i even say -

stay here?

don't go away?

those are not the words

i can tell you

and this hurt

is only mine to look at

otherwise, i'll feel like a brat

wanting more than i can ever have

taking up two seats when i only need one