(why can't i) let go

why can't i let go
of the things you said so long ago
why am i still stuck in one place
still on the chase
after you
(even though i was the first one to let go)

i saw you came by
you didn't even say hi
it shouldn't bother me so much
that i can't even cry

oh, shut up, shut up
you and all your words
i repeat to myself
do not leave a trace
leave it all behind
no mind, no mind
you think too much
don't let it blind
you
let go

why can't i let it go?

and i thought it was over
that i was finally sober
no more high
after seeing pictures of you

but it's not done
i'm still on the run
chasing after the one
just to see you
wherever i turn

no more air to breathe
you took it all when i saw you
a hit right to the chest
you're the best.

you were the best.