altschmerz

day after day after day

everything's the same

all my flaws start boring me

“i want to change”, i tell,

all you say is:

“i see”

but hey, look at me, boy

how much time has passed by

since i said these words for the first time?

and do you know what’s funny? they’re a part of me now

a part of annoyance

a part of why i won’t ever find solace

but, oh, boy, do i change?

no, i don’t

and i won’t

if i did, i’d find it too strange

after all, my fate’s already set

oh, boy, don’t forget

about me, how i was

when we had just met

tell me, why should i change myself?

i might’ve grown weary of the same old issues i’ve always had

but when chance presents itself

i won’t take it, even though i know i will make you sad

it’s comfortable, you know

that feeling i know i can always slip into

is so reassuring

is curing me

during the

times i need securing

they are my mooring

...but it’s so tiring

once upon a time... i was aspiring

and now, i just feel my time, expiring

oh, boy, tell me

how do i move

how do i prove

to myself

that i can improve?

disprove

my fears

remove

my tears

oh boy, tell me

how do i move from this place?

i’ve fallen too far behind in this race

but i still don’t wanna lose