koi no yokan

(premonition of love)

i met you by chance

never thought it'll end like this

on the first glance

i saw the possibility of bliss

...who am i even kidding

i hate this feeling

but you do make me happy, like a fool

over me, you have absolute rule

when i saw you for the first time

my heart became a mime

trapped in a box, gesturing, mute

with a target on its back, and a note on it: SHOOT

i had a premonition of love, in me it’d reign

but only if i saw you once again

and damn my luck – of course i did

and the shot through the heart got rid

of all pieces of hope i gathered

i shouldn’t even have bothered

instead of blood, disgusting black slime

was what rushed out of the hopeful mime

staining invisible walls that surrounded him

and his once expressionless face without makeup is so grim

and lights on the stage start to dim

and on my chest now gapes a black hole

starting to brim

with a fluid eroding my soul

eating it whole

i had this premonition of love

and i did not run away

now i can only pray

my consciousness can fly

as a dove

high into the sky

and if this is where i die

i won’t wish you goodbye

because i know

one day

you’ll be mine

and your lies

will shine

only for my

eyes