sorry

i'm sorry i showed you my feelings that abruptly

without a warning beforehand

i'm sorry for spilling my heart out

and then for drowning in the quicksand

of my mind

i'm sorry for caring too much what you think

i'm sorry for letting you be seen

with a loser like me

i'm sorry for ruining your dream

i'm sorry for not remembering things important to you

although i claim i'm a fool

that remembers everything you say or do

i'm sorry i died in front of you

but when i let go of my secret, all that was me flew

out and me that you knew

became an empty shell

and i know, i know you won't tell

but i know, i know how to read the look in your eyes

i see through your smiling disguise

and i know...

i know

that now

you despise

me

and i know...

from now on any soul

that'll fall

to my chest, in this black hole

that'll swallow them all

won't be whole

ever again