the noise (3/3)

I am not alone, no
I won’t ever be, oh
There’s so much noise
So loud, her voice

And I don’t know what I’m doing
I was crying, now I’m smiling
Waves of emotions are drowning
Me, and I am laughing
I’m angry, then scared shitless
After that I’m silent and witless
And the I find everything meaningless
Just to start screaming to nothingness
But nothing comes out. I am empty,
That scares me. Was that this bargain’s fee?



That’s how it was at start, at least
Before she, my mask, began her feast
I wanted her to save me, like a priest
But instead, she wrapped me up in this mist
And I don’t know the way out of here, help me
But who would help the person who doesn’t wanna be
Saved? And I scream and scream, but first part of the fee
Was my voice; and then my eyes, and I cannot see.

But i can still hear
And I can still fear
Of all of this noise
So loud… Her voice…

As the days go by, she’s speaking to me less
And every moment I spend in silence just deepens the mess
I fall in, more and more, and as the days go by, I must confess
The sound of her voice is the only thing that helps
I am so alone and scared as a mouse near cat’s nest
And as time passes, I see her more as a friend and less as a pest
And that scares me more than she ever had, I need a rest
To go somewhere far away, from this fear and feelings I detest

That was when she started talking to me about
Some faraway place, dark, but free of doubt
And that’s now the only thing I thinking about
A faraway place, dark, but free of doubt
And I promise I won’t forget you, so don’t you forget me
And I won’t fade away in that darkness, so let me be
But if silence proves to be too much, please, forgive me
Because if silence surrounds me, no one can hear my plea
For freedom or light, it wouldn’t matter anymore
And the darkness might prevail, then I’m done for
But I will do my best, don’t forget me, I will start a war
If needed to get out of here, and I won’t go back to her, nevermore

I am not alone, no
But I will be, oh
There’s no noise
Not even her voice

…and now I miss it, no!
…and I will go back, oh…
back to that noise
that i love, to her voice…